"Have you ever been so upset you just completely broke down alone by yourself?Your parents can't tell and nor can your friends because you hide it behind a smile. You know you're not okay. Yet again, no one knows how you feel and you don't bother telling them because they have their own lives to deal with.

So you store all your problems, all your sorrow, all your tears, all your hurt and all your pain. You'll take it out some other day, but not today.. Today's not the day. Because here's to the nights you delt with more than you bargained for. All those sleepless nights crying so hard you couldn't breathe.

To the nights you couldn't wait till everybody grew up because you were sick of them judging you. To all those nights you wished things would just get better. To all those good nights that turned to bad. To all those nights you wished you were older. To those nights that unfortunately came too soon."

Photoshootttt

So .. While putting on make up for my sis,i told Neng i'm interested in photography. He actually asked me to join his community // until i told him i'm only 16. *coughs* Which means i look old sigh -o-.

Woop woop // preparing.

:] my sister looks like an angel

Guard dogs. People with big houses need em. I know right?

Neng says we'll be seeing Nicole,Celeste & Yutaki often because they are in the same community. hehe! Can't wait for my sister's next shoot... Platform is not official yet,so stay tuned to their blogs!!!

I'm a huge fan of Yutaki .just cause i saw him a few times before.. lol

Source: http://yutakis.wordpress.com

*faints*

More behind the scenes:
http://nicolechen.net/blog/i-%E2%99%A5-nicole-chen%E2%84%A2-%E2%80%93-behind-the-scene-2011-photoshoots-part-ii/

Man Boobs ahahaha

This is a complete random post :Funniest game ever

The most stupid and hardest game i've ever played.. Try it i swear you'll facepalm yourself or laugh like one duck. ( although i don't know how one sounds like)

The only way i got to 20.1m is by knee climbing it's damn hilarious. Oh god. The distance you're supposed to cover is like 100m by the way. Which is impossible.

Have fun.

Double LOL at the image ^

Trust no man,Fear no bitch.

It works, really. Trust me.

WOOOHOOO ~

Cass came to my house in the morning , than at 1 pm,Met Kokhwee the birthday boy at Mall.Waited for Jia hui who took his time,and bused to Bedok,Derrick's place.

Hongchye , Jerald and Jerald's girlfriend were already there. So basically me and Cass spent like 6hours sitting there waiting for the buffet,and of course i was playing with his fluffy dog the whole day. Used Derrick's com to Blackshot for like an hour. After cutting the cake,sent Cass home and slept. Had a good laugh with everyone hehe!

Internet very laggy right now so i shall upload all the MBS & Zoo's pic tmr . hehe!

waiting for results and my heart is beating really quickly.

Everyone follow me on Tumblr! Or Create one and follow me! Interesting pics there.

http://skinnykidsskinningkids.tumblr.com

If i'm a girl.. they would assume that i'm a bitch.

If i'm a guy.. they would assume that i'm a bastard.

If i'm black..they would assume i rape everyone i see.

If i'm blonde..they would assume that i'm a slut.

If i'm pretty..they would assume that i'm very confident.

If i'm ugly..they would assume i'm a loser.

If i'm an rebel.. they would assume my whole family is , too.

People with opinions, I BEG YOU TO DIFFER.

Do you believe in black magic?

Used my Sister's Samsung Cam it has cool effects!!

Anyway i've been working lately and i don't feel like updating about my stay at MBS .. Maybe next time. Currently blogging because i don't have to work today, because i need to visit the doctor or my mother will kill me. Just wanna ask..

Do you believe in black magic?

As a result of my boredom i have googled Black Magic

Black magic is the belief of practices of magic that draws on assumed malevolent powers. This type of magic is invoked when wishing to kill, steal, injure, cause misfortune or destruction, or for personal gain without regard to harmful consequences to others.

-by http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Black_magic

I believe LOL!!! Call me superstitious and look at what i've got to say. Whatever but i have a true story to prove my innocence .

Theres this really pretty lady.. ( according to my mum,she WAS very pretty )

Very pretty,but maybe not as pretty as Katy here. -o-

She's a beautician/club hostess or whatever.. my mum used to see her everytime because she buys jeans from my mum. Suddenly one day, she became insane.. Like .. she keeps to herself.

Than everyone spread that.. She got involved with a girl because the girl's boyfriend likes her and than the girl curse her and use black magic on her..

2 days ago, she was caught by the police in front of my Mum's shop ( i was there ) She really looks different lor !!! Than she's like.. expressionless. Imagine you're a police and than the person you're talking to has no expressions . Wow even the lie detector can't tell if she's lying. She's like, seeing a wall of water rushing down on her, BUT SHE WONT EVEN MOVE AN INCH.

I never lie about the story. Except for the part where she got involved with a girl. hahahahahaha

BUT A GIRL DID USE BLACK MAGIC ON HER.

She either used

True name spells - the theory that knowing a person's true name allows control over that person, making this wrong for the same reason. This can also be used as a connection to the other person, or to free them from another's compulsion.

OR

Curses/Hexes - a curse can be as simple as wishing something bad would happen to another, to a complex ritual.

Sorry if my story was unexciting i'm just trying to keep my blog alive .

P/s If you're a sicko and like to look at sick stuff ,which obviously isnt me,who had already reached 60++ pages,Click Here

Spent $250++ this week :'( Shall blog about the Hotel and more next week since i can dont go to work anymore next week!! Anyway i changed my Tumblr link

http://hintofpixiedust.tumblr.com

Heyyyyyyyyyy

My blog damn dead! Have been very busy this few days.

Took this in the afternoon that day. The haze spoil the scenery. Chicken Balls .

Today, i went for flag day.. With Berlin and Vanessa . While Berlin went for lunch with her friend , me and Vanessa talked about alot of things.. She's 18. I thought she was 16 ahahaha,than she showed me the things she made in her room with her phone. She's mad good in DIY. & we talked about some teachers in which i found interesting cause we have the same opinion. Uh than my baby Berlin came back, we went back to school!! with HEAVY "coin box" or whatever you call it. And i finally got to try KOI!!! haha very kiasu. * feels sense of achievement *

Shall post some pictures of the hotel i went to on my brithday.

1)Hotel card 2) Guess how much this awesome tasting cake cost. So expensive !!!! 3) My exhausted brother 4)My retarded cousin

I got alot of red packets on my birthday.. But i spent alot on clothes, accessories and clothes etc....

Anyway,I went to check the price of Sims 3 + Expansion pack, $80. Was about to use Nets to pay for it and luckily i called Andy to check first.. He said he can dl for me.. And he downloaded the whole expansion pack today!!! around 7 expansions man hahahah awesome right .I'm going to buy a 200gb hard disk or something tomorrow. My $$$ confirm fly . :'( Than Andy's gonna transfer the files to me.

Now my room's literally empty. I hid everything in big transparent boxes and packed my stuffs into categories. Fixed my sister's desktop in my room and im going to use this awesome and high definition com to play.... SIMS 3 HAHAHA. Doubt i'll have the time though. K bye~

Pictures of Alysta : ( brought her out for a walk today)

She was so happy that she cannot stop laughing to herself !!

Am actually glad my sister's not bringing her home because her maid cannot come to Singapore or something... Oh i taught her how to Hi-5 and put back things that she took!! ( she usually puts them in her mouth. ) I love Alysta.

I'll update again soon!!

Had a awesome birthday. Mum booked me a hotel at Marina Bay Sands Hotel . Everyone was cool and enjoying wine and chocolate. After checking out i was so sick. Have to wait for Facebook to unblock me because they thought i was spamming.. I was only trying to thank everyone who wished me. Shall rest and prepare for supper with family later. Will update my blog soon!!

Last Saturday's party was G R E A T . Good food and good friends. Many Uncle Aunties but all were in their own world drinking wine talking bout money and one showing off(drunk) that he bought a land for $1b . Spent most of my time talking to Adrain and Lovelle and opening doors for visitors. Damn funny day i swear. Everyone enjoyed and no one complained about anything. Met up with some people i met during competition days..

Im still very tired because of yesterday's trip,my whole body's aching!! . Rode from Hougang to East Coast Park than back to Hougang again with friends. Mum's gonna bring me & baby Allie to the Zoo tomorrow shall update soon about the Bicycle trip and the Zoo!!

Just webcammed with Kelly and baby Allie called Mama when she saw her. So cute hehe. Bb~

Awesome party yesterday. Still tired till now. Will update next week . Stay tune!

lovelovelovelovelove you guys.

SEOUL GARDEN

Before Dnt exams, met Shabil and we went to mac together. After that left Cass,Azhar & Wayne alone there and went over to Hougang green to meet Shafiq,Rahman & the usuals. Played Blackshot with my best buddy Shabil with a few other guys. And i called the police wtf!! I thought i lost my ipod touch :'(

So i took a break today.. went to Seoul Garden @Tamp4 with Jeff,Aqil,Cassandra,Azhar,Shiwei,Jiankai . Camera-woman was Cassandra.

Just uploading a few cause there's alot.

The one with alot of food is taken from the guy's table. Me and Cassandra were like.. WTF ???

We sat there for 2 hours plus and they were eating thrice as much as us. Went to the arcade for awhile and battled Sw in Dance Dance revolution or something. He kept asking me to play the easy one!!! Reached home at 6pm. Hehe . Gtg now ~

"We humans ought to learn what is forgiveness and love."

Why this person like to tell others what i said, but she change the whole story? What a joke.

The person who believed her is also a idiot for believing her without asking for the truth,but cant blame her,we don't know each other well,they're too shy to ask? What a depressing life for them. Living in their lies. Don't really know how low people can get -_- Too naive for thinking that i'll have any reaction/misery or whatever their thinking, if they use these methods on me. Like the children go " say people,say yourself "

Your existence means nothing to me you see ^^

10/10/10

10/10/10 , Watched Titanic with Ponpon on Funshion till 4am? ^o^v .

Tomorrow last paper! Was very busy this few days , Took care of Alysta alone . So im gonna wake up early to study for my paper tomorrow . And i've got confirmed plans from my mother today!!

• 20/10 - Alysta's birthday party
• 22/10 - Marina bay sands

Yay!! Me and my bro will be going to the hotel in the afternoon and my parents will be coming over. How will my holidays be spent? Probably working at my mother's shop and taking care of baby Alysta. Hope all my friends enjoy their holidays! :) hehe! All the best!!! ~~

Deleted the previous post. finally solved the misunderstandings with Eve last week. Well anyway, was busy studying for N levels recently~ Went out for a couple of days with Cass and Eve.Have to take care of baby Allie during my holidays,because my maid was sent home. There goes my holiday. Mum's most probably gonna book a hotel at Resort's World for 3 days on my birthday. yay!!!

Gonna treat Berlin to lunch / dinner. Have been dragging our date :( . God bless everyone, hope everyone's gonna pass their examinations :)

P/s i dont live with revenge or hate. I live with what i have.

JOAN SIM.
CHEER UP AND TAKE A CHILL PILL YO

The moment you think about giving up, think of the reason why you held on for so long you know~ Concentrate on your studies now girl. There's many fishes in the sea, dont let one Bullbull cow bring you down . What you see might not be what you think , the best way is to ask for the truth yourself,than give up,if not you're fighting a losing battle. You cannot always believe what you see isnt it? You're hurting yourself more like that. You're a strong girl. Hope you know what to do and what to say, at least when you had a lot of reasons to give up, you still chose to stay.

Today was seriously a funny day. Went to basketball court , Shiwei, Ming Yang , Yu guo , Cassandra, Rui lin, Ying hao, Jiankai,Aslam,Kai Ding , Nelson, Siti , Qian Hui,Aqil etc etc were all there. It was raining damn heavily and Jian kai took out his shirt!!! OMG!!! Damn funnyyyyy haha we even took a video of him playing half naked under the rain. Hahahahaaaa.

Next week need to chiong for " N " Levels.. Hope i will pass and get into sec 5 yo!
Gonna stop blogging :)

It takes millions of people to complete the world, but it only takes one to complete mine, and thats you.

"People can say whatever they want about us , but at the end of the day, we're still going to be us, and we're still going to be living our god damn life."

Basketball today again. Shall start hardcore - studying tmr.

Http://royalmagichouse.tumblr.com ,
created Tumblr :D updating both of my websites

ZZZZZZZZ

You should know me very well. If you think any way, just think about it. Nobody in this world is perfect. You have your bad points , i have mine . you have your good points , i have mine. You should also think about what you said,if you say its my retribution , than its alright. Retribution here and there , you'll also get it back. So why not just dont give a damn anymore if you hate me so much.

Sometimes people just have to look at the bright side of everything instead of the bad side of everything.Since i didnt give a damn about it what for you should too?You say until i so bad to you, than you're stooping to my level by saying me back isnt it? You yourself already said you moved on so just quit thinking about this matter.


Ciaos.

Tiring day today. After school, Went to Bball court with Aslam,Jeff & co. Have a blueblack on my leg cause i fell down while playing a match! Shabil came for awile and we heart to heart talk for a few minutes . After that, played badminton and Jeff was addicted to it. hahaha damn funny cause he was supposed to play bball with the guys. So tired today manzxzzxz :'( Kept running here and there. Watching Cinderella now, Ciaos!

If friends give up on me because i cared too much for them, they should jolly well fuck off.

If you want me as a friend you have to tolerate my honesty.

" Friends are people who would tell you how they bitch about you ,how they feel about you. Because they know true friends will always forgive them. Guess you dont like friends being honest to you? " - By kaykay http://twitter.com/yankaykay I always find her tweets interesting .

Well anyway~ Shabil came outside my house today and we went to school together :) It was a interesting day today, haha, 'N' Levels are coming soon, i hope everyone does well! :D :D Anyway thanks Berlin for all your advices~~ luvluv you man~

P/s I have so much plans after N levels! But for now.. i have to study.. :'( eye bags are getting bigger and bigger , and soon my hair scalp will be brewing white strands instead of black ones ( maybe)

Hello every single friends ♥ ♥ I luv ya allllllll

LOL Potter is a horny bastard

Hehee~ Detention on both today and yesterday. Went to Mac with Joan on Monday , and was late. Today was a very funny day. Detention with Joan,Felicia and Dexter. After they left , it was left with me and Dexter . Im very hyper today because Mr singh was with us all the way from around 3-5.30pm. He is so bloody funny LOL. He wanted to twist Dexter's nipples if he sleep again. Dexter kept bouncing the basketball than Mr Singh went over and use his "defend moves" or something on him. He kept laughing LOL...

I've never seen Mr Singh laugh like that before, he was like a 13 year old kid having fun :O After awhile Dexter was so frustrated he felt sexually harassed and went back to sit down. ahhh funny day manzxz i was so happy i kept telling him stupid things. He gossiped to me about some people ^o^ Surprising to hear.


Well anyway... I just love the smell of September rain , Yesterday it was raining heavily and i went out of class and closed my eyes.. tiny raindrops fell on my face and i went nearer , the rain smells really sweet . I thought i could relax for the whole week but some matter just brewed my anger meter . Gaaahhhhhh . Problems everyday. I really hate it when a friend do lj things behind my back. Its kinda obvious when someone dont like me anyway. I was so so so upset.



I'm very sensitive on being used, so if I get the slightest whiff or gut feeling... I run for the hills..
Maybe I feel more secure standing alone, looking ahead instead of the backs of heads.

P/s You don't wanna feed me with all these nonsense... All the possibilities of chaos are brewing.

There are many meanings of love in life.

" I love you also means that i love you more than anyone loves you , or has loved you ,or will love you,and also in a way that no one loves you,or has loved you,and also i love you in a way that i love no one else,and never have loved anyone else,and never will love anyone else "

如果同一秒钟,你也想起了我 .

I am terrified but keep me calm. Hold my hand with your right hand, and pull the trigger with your left,remember to point it at my chest :)
- Joeleen

I just need somebody to love ~
Joan & Brenda at my house right now :)) Watched a stupid show people said its scary -_-


So far my favourite song :)



p/s Jon !! 4months17days more :) ;; jiayou

Broken trust and broken hearts

I wish i was a paparazzi ,stalking you

pasting your every move on my wall.

My room would be so beautiful , like a magical land -Joeleen

Those jewels dont shine as bright as you.

" Tell me you love me , come back and haunt me "
This is my sister LOL . Her captions are so funny.

And so was webcamming with my sis today! As you can see im in my pjs so i replaced my Just-woke-up face with a cute smiley.


Baby allie is sooo cute!! and LOL @ Andy.


Was short of sleep today!!! Wished i had a bathtub that i could sprinkle strawberries in and fill it up with strawberry milk. And of course fall asleep in it * dreams* cha cha hazaazx sdfsfsdf.
And thanks to everyone who cared for me! Thank you! Im feeling much better now. I can finally rest in peace cuz i have great friends around me xoxo

Im taking full advantage of the holiday this week...im not going to let it slip through my fingers without enjoying it. Because hell starts in school next week.