;;You make me cry,You make me smile,Just a little love from you,is enough? :(

Monday went over to Rachel's house,i cabbed home.
After that she cabbed to my house ,alot of things happened
Got a scolding from Eugene & Yaoyao ..Shall not elaborate on what happened..
Hmm went to Green to find Jason after that.
Today Went to buy burger with Shabil during physics lesson~yummy.
Shafiq asked me to sit beside him so i changed my seats :) Azhar was at worlds end, Me and Shafiq kept laughing cause when i changed seat Azhar went to emo HAHA. &Joan did something really stupid and hell yea me and Shaf could not stop laughing. Then yea as usual met Berlin when school ended.

My heart's brokenbroken now cause of the 3 most important girls of my life .
Rachel,Berlin,Amanda, I think somehow,they are suffering in some part of their life now..

Rachel;
I nagged at you for 100000times,but you still dont wanna listen ,So yea i cannot decide anything for you,cause in the end you still go back .... i dont expect you to do what i say.Speechless when it comes to you sometimes.Just hope you'll buckle up,Your School's starting,goodluck. We met thru a friend ( fate maybe? ) Guess we're really close cause our personality's the same :) love you,mad bitch.
Berlin,
What happened yesterday was really heartbreaking ,i hope Mr Ho wont do anything to you anymore or i swear i'll murder him for you! :( & yea,i really appreciate you for being honest in everything and telling me your stories,feelings etc.I dont know exactly how you're feeling now but i hope you'll be back to your normal self again,ya know,the happy cheerful girl?
heeee love you. Thank you for making me smile when im down,hope i'm doing the same for you ?
Amanda,
3 days never come to school,What happened to you? Im so worried for you eh :( This year i think we're closer somehow.Hope when i see you again we can crap together and bully Berlin together hahahaha,I know you're a strong girl and you always manage to buckle up yourself,But i hope i can do something for you eh,Me & Berlin will be here when you need us,Just like how you're there for us when we need you :) love you.

P/s I swear i'll punch the next person who make my friends feel irritated -_-
P/p/s Just hope i can punch the wall till my hand breaks omg madmadmad
!@#$%!@$%#^&U%$#^!^!%!%^@!&?#$%^ f*** this life

I don't want to hear those sweet speeches you give,no boy,cause their all lies.

Amanda ,Rachel,baby Alysta. No me except for my hand because I forgot about myself

Love the peace logo : > Anyway the cigarette's not mine i dont smoke (:

Rachel came over to my house at 4+ ,She was acting like a total mental problematic person -_-

While walking over to Hougang Point to get our stuff

she was shouting my nick name Medusa in chinese and we were singing

" Yuan liang wo " Really loudly. Ah memories.

Well 5+ Went to Hougang Point to get our stuff & Amanda came over.

Headed back to my house to chat and we went out to slack nearby my house at 8pm.

the 3 of us were feeling really down and we sang songs together.. ah.

And i can remember those countless times they asked me at my house whether i was alright.

Love them alot,They are always so sweet. Hope i can see them soon!♥

Ah webcammed with Kaiwen♥ last week when Harry was in msia in his Hotel aha.
He's cute ain't he ? I miss him :(

ha.

Shall post next week peeps.

Signing off with Hugs & Kisses xoxo♥
p/s my heart was torn in two;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

Nothing can compare to your first true love.

So I hope this will remind you.
When it's for real, it's forever.So don't forget about us.

Did you regret ever standing by my side?

Did you forget what we were feeling inside?

Pictures burnt,lessons learnt.

Now i'm left here,To forget , about us.

If you ever ask me what you meant to me,I'll lie and say " nothing " .

;;I think the whole worlds addicted to the drama
Only attracted to the things that bring you trauma.;;

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I tried so hard to take control of my mind and meditate,
To let my soul gravitate to love. But I can't.
I know that life cannot be always what i wanted it to be,
Miracles are created by chance and chances are created by myself.
But im losing all the hope cause how can i create miracles if i dont even have the chance?
I cant promise anyone that ill bring them happiness,
Sigh,I wont give myself another chance to love anymore.

//
..Selfishness got us following the wrong direction...

If i say,In my world..Even If the sky i look upon,tumble and fall.

And the mountains crumble to the sea.

will you stand by me , if i dont shed a tear?

P/s;;So I say a little prayer,And hope my dreams will take me there,Where the skies are blue,To see you once again, my loves. Signing off,xoxo

Since January I've been wanting this!!

ZA Two-Way Foundation (limited edition collection)

from Watsons / Guardian!!!

But i no money la my pocket now got one big hole.

All this were kept deep down in my heart..

All this words describe my feelings.

Please forgive me, forgive me for being immature.
Please forgive me,
For how i selfishly think of possessing you...
Let me bear the loneliness,In exchange for a better life for you..

原諒我; 蕭敬騰

ok bye honeypuffs ♥♥

Thanks to Rachel Teo I found out my links cant be seen ( im blind wtf)

So i fixed it by re making my blogskin.

Lost some links,Tag me if you wanna be linked! *insert kisses*

Hey guys,I've been really busy this week.
Thursday

Went to Tampinies with Chenlong,Linkay,Sean & Shirley.
5pm ,Went to meet Cl,Lk,Sean first then we took bus 72. Watched Kidnapper. Quite nice (:
10+ We bused back and i alighted at mall cause my Mum wanna fetch me home.
Yesterday;
Went to WildWildWet with my 2 Aunts,and my 2 cousins.
April came to fetch me :> Had lunch and headed to WWW .

Met my dearest Godfather there.He brought his children ^o^ & Coincidently when at WWW,Saw my life guard friend,Didnt really have fun cause my cousin was teasing me all the way as my friend held my hand to help me get down the float :( My aunt was really angry cause my cousin say i keep talk to shuai ge HAHAHA . went back after 2 hours cause my niece was freezing :<>

Today,

Linkay & Chenlong came over to my house at 3pm + ,
Chenlong brought his lappy to play WOW , while Linkay was playing with my niece:

I was webcamming With Harry & His friend Kaiwen

Hi Harry ,I covered your face cause i know you wouldn't like it if i showed your face.

& I played Jigsaw puzzle with Rachel again! hard but fun :>

6+Went to point to have dinner with them,@Mac. Thanks for the meal guys.
Headed down to green with Chenlong as we were really bored. Saw my old buds! Alan,Dong &co.

Talked to Jason.The koi on his leg became my new wife HAHA.
Hmm Kangxuan was there too and we talked about school (:

After that headed home as my mum say she's reaching home soon. h3h3 on the way while walking back, Kenneth called me.& a Cat bit me! Went back home to wash away the blood. That ungrateful cat! To think i actually fed her all the time . ok enough of my ranting. Signing off! Luv you guys! School's reopening, Excited to the maxx .

Many things happened, many conflicts,and finally i realised,we cannot judge a book by it's cover,And i'll never trust anyone that easily again (:

Hmm&bored now,so posting randomly.

My Masterpieces..

My 4 silly bums make my day. Ling,Yee,Rachel ,Wata.

Thanks guys ^o^

Lastly, Chia Jing Yee / Coke Bottle!! Happy birthday! You turned 16 yesterday.

Bondonkdonk luv you (:

p/s might not be going Tiomon island.

P/p/s Shall blog tmr after i go out and post pix if i find my hp cable.

I know what you said about us,But are you that perfect? I saw through your true colours,In fact, alot others did. Maybe or not this is a misunderstanding,but they provided prove to me.And when people compliment others,do you have to say " maybe they edit their photos?" and stop faking that you bought this and that,and telling others that you're very good etc. aww. If you're so awesome,stop posting edited photos that dont look like you .I remember one photo,you took it from my friend's friend profile wtf? zzz cant believe you cheated us into believing some stuffs too -_- You must be mad angry and keep cursing the people who are involved in this matter right,well i dont care. If you hate us,Come and tell us,no guts? I know nobody is perfect but do you have to be like this? Knowing what you said about us probably hurt our little hearts.

ok.. enough of my ranting.

Anyway went to Bugis yesterday! i keep walking around,visiting my aunt's shop etc hahaha took alot of photos but too bad My hp cableeeeeeeeeeeeeee is goneeeeeeeeeeeee!! Anyway my other Aunt came over to talk to me at Bugis and I think Im snorkeling with her tmr at Tioman Island!! She says she's gonna cover my expenses & im not happy because of that but because...

Omg i'm going there to do this!!!:

I really love animals alot! And that includes fishes. I can imagine me swimming with the fishes in that clear water :o Ok i'm really excited now I hope the tix or whatever is not sold out. Gonna wait for my Aunt's call! byebye babies!

They say life's for living,When I dont feel so good today.

I guess i'll drift away. Well excuse my expression,but i dont give a f*** today

I keep thinking too much this few days and even thought of doing stupid things :(

HAHA! Lucky Honey B cast a spell on me,told me its bad & made me control myself.

And of course i have common sense,if i dont like the guy why should i bother going out with him or whatever right?

Just that im still having MAJOR headache and undergoing MAJOR sadness @!!$#^%!@

They are taking over my brain cellsssssssss.(talking to myself)

luv Honey B! Gonna go to school to accompany her eat breakfast tmr . I very good right!!

Ok Bye.

Today 5.15 went to 684 there to meet Amanda,Donovan & co !

Qingyang,Louis,Donovan,and i think 4 other guys,Amanda& Me sat bus to causeway point :) Went to meet Isaac there when we reached at 6.30 then Isaac went off first

. After that Berlin came and we all took a cab over to Republic Poly! Ah! 2nd outing with my dearest girls (: love them ttm !

After that meet Isaac & we went into the concert hall to watch SHINE ^o^ heheh , After break Daniel joined us and he keep talk nonsense about the stage play... hmm ended at 10pm and we walked around to chat here and there.. Then me and my dearest girls went to take pictures ahahaha!

Walked to Causeway point with both of them and me and Amanda shared a cab cause we were tired. Home sweet home after that and just finished having a conversation on the phone with someone while he walked home! 1hour + imba or what??!!?

Ahhh! & I'm meeting Taka at Pasir ris tmr! Shall blog next week ! xoxo.

Hope we'll see each other during the holidays! <3<3<3

Released like 2 hours ago! And i saw it !
Its here!!Lady GaGa & Beyonce in Telephone.

Both Gaga And Beyonce is hottttttttttt.

And look at GaGa's glasses! Made of cigarette! at the first 2minutes of the video.

to BERLIN:

I saw your blog post i quite touched eh,heh *winks*

fatass,Let me reflect on our story 3 years back. We had a quarrel, because of some misunderstandings,I can say its a rather big conflict. then Mrs Lee made us sign a "contract" which has our ic number,personal info etc written on it, and in the contract, it says that we cannot talk ever again in our school life. (wtf) But now we're so close that even Mrs Grace Chen thought we lesbian HAHAHAHA ,you also. dont emo about your lovelove ok,and right! I promise i'll study hard and go to school! ^o^ Oh and since you compliment me im gonna compliment back,i love the way you care for your friends too, and yes we were both so childish 3 years back! But now you're mature and you always give me your opinion ( Said a million time already) And you're the one who's always make me laugh when im down! I appreciate our friendship man!

to Amanda:

The one who always make me laugh,is youyouyou,Me and Berlin will always be by your side.

Thank you for your care,And if you didnt know,You taught me alot of things and when im lost you'll give me your opinion . I appreciate our friendship,If you need to cry,i'll lend you my shoulder (:

&Yes Me,You,Berlin should hang out some day!

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Love does not exist in my dictionary, and it never will.

You'll never win me,cause you're the loser,for you gave up someone who didn't give up on you.

If in future you say i gave up on you,i'll only smile bleakly and reply, its not because i forgot you,but because i placed too much of my love in you.

*dont copy my passage without permission,i hate copycats ttm now -.- *

My mood nowadays...

sigh,What are you thinking? Why do you always make my mood go up and down.

You'll never know how i feel, for i wont ever tell you :(

Leading a happy life

Heres the picture of the Japanese curry we made the other day!

Some of you might be wondering what curry seasoning we used. So i posted a picture of it. the curry seasoning was bought from fairprice! ^o^

And the Mango sorbet we made yesterday! Its yummy! :)

Very easy to make. 2Mango + 5 lime + 3 egg ( egg white only) , then into the freezer!

My sister's baby. Spend alot of time taking care of her nowadays , busy ttm.

Played 3 rounds of dota today! Friend said i improved alot .

Im having a major headache but im gonna go study anyway.

ttyl , xoxo.

Yesterday cooked Japanese Curry with Andy for Lunch, Yummy!
Took alot photos of the process but lazy to upload. Shall upload next time.
Played 3 rounds of Dota last night and my eyes were like @_@
Today after winning one Dota round went to the supermarket to get ingredients with Andy.
Came home and made Home Made Mango Ice cream. Waiting for it to freeze now (:
So much kitchen activities, haha!

Im very sad,i dont know why.
I finally understand how my dearest Berlin feels :( we're both on the same boat, sigh.
I want you,but hey i wont let you know that.

Funny to the max, Pink panther is damnnnn cute

Some conversations..no contemplation.

Nothing much happened today.

Going to read the book about Medusa i lent from the library today and google more about greek gods later. well after school waited for Berlin @the library for 1 hour today cause she wanted to walk back together.

Saw Amanda outside school,so we accompanied her as she was waiting for Gerald.

Me and Berlin were doodling on our Design&Technology journal (:

4.15pm + Walked back home while Berlin went to her busstop opposite my house :)

This is our daily routine, Going to school and going back together after school. haha!

Thanks Berlin for giving me advices when i complain everyday :(

i guess i shall keep this a secret forever. xoxo..

They are the ones who wouldn't jump down with me when i want to jump a bridge,But the ones who would be at the bottom to catch me.

Luv Amanda&Berlin,The ones always there for me. xoxo

p/s: i didnt delete my post(s) , i just hid them.

life is great now,i wont let anything break me .

Deleted the post! I feel that its no use complaining cause i dont fking care

Just like what Berlin said, i know i never do can already.

hack care!

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Today after school had a chat with Chengyee & Berlin ! Berlin is so high alright.

Make me laugh non-stop. We're gonna have a chat later on at night!

Me and Berlin this few days.Talk too much about luv you know!

ok Andy is fixing Kelly's awesome computer in my room and i shall go check them out. Ciaos!

EDITTEDXZXZ :

I just found out that some people searched for my other blog.

The blog is just for my rants,Why he/she so kpo for? Why dont ask me herself/himself?

So i deleted it,Since it's just for rant.& Im effing pissed. So much things happened this week.I know complaining is no use but thinking of all this really make me zzzz .Feel like stabbing a person if that person offend me arghhh. Talking to Berlin now! telling her how i feel. She's such a good listener. gonna see her tmr ! She didnt come to school today.

Anything msn me, Teardropsandfireflies@hotmail.com! cya

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Served 4 hours of detention today, hmm Amanda came at around 2+ .

Shall not elaborate what happened,very complicated.

After detention me,Amanda,Felicia, & Co went to slack for awhile.. happyhappy :)

You know what you did.I didnt say out anything to anyone cause i didnt want to ruin your life any further. By saying this doesnt mean that im completely at fault. I said this because i know, inside your heart you didnt feel 100% good when you were with me. After all this happened,I know how you feel,guys are different from girls too. & Im not a selfish person. Forgetting is the best solution,Life still goes on without you,I forgave,i forget. So dont even leave a trace of me in your head ,cause it would only make you suffer.

Goodbye,maybe life would be happier for both of us if we never met.

P/S : Dont talk behind someone's back,cause news spread fast. And it gets to the person quickly. If you dont like me, just tell me. Tell me how you feel and the reason why :)

Went to Amk virtual lan yesterday, After that went to granny's place..

9+went to other granny's place..My godfather open Abalone for me again..

I eat until sian zz they keep open Abalone for me for at least a month already.

Swear i will vomit if i see Abalone again.

Then 11pm+ Xiaozhong out of a sudden call me chat ,1am+ I went to sleep due to some reasons. Just came back from 4 hours of gambling session with
Jiakit ,Kokhwee,Jiajie,Jiahui,Hamcah,Derrick.
Shabil Alif went back at around 5pm . Really bored. Shall study later.
And look at this jokers:

Know them so long,Now wing hard le can fly already .

Ask them go out they can link to other things, haha! Miss the times..

Now all of us busy,no time for each other already...

Oh and i wanna rant about something. Today sent Joan to busstop cause i was bored.

Then got one indian guy stand infront of me..

Digging gold in his nose.I find it very funny and annoying because

• 1)he saw me looking but he continue digging
• 2)he had a ' Wa very shiok' expression when he dig
• 3)at least half his finger was in his nose hole
• 4)That went on for a very long period of time
• 5)imagine when he get on bus,where is he going to wipe his hand on??

Im not saying that people cannot dig nose.. Just dont do it infront of anyone please

If got gold inside your nose then keep it to yourself careful

later people see you dig then they 'rob your gold '

Ok post when im free! Ciaos!