my eyes know that its not worth to tear . But yet it turns so watery and red. Deep in my heart i jolly well know that the more i want something the more i lose it. I have alot to say but my mouth refuses to let me speak. my ears listens to people's opinion and comments but i refuse to repeat it in my mind ,im so stubborn.Even the smallest cell in my brain knows that no love lasts forever. I can smile and laugh but i also cry. Love is a cruel temptation. I think it'll take me a few years to fix heart although i fall in love easily.

Im a bad woman.



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Yesterday work yawnsyawns.
When i went my mum was in a good mood cause im cute ok?
LOL. I so bhb is because yesterday a guy came to the shop and kept looking at me.
Then Rachel realised he keep following me. So i turned around and gave him a shock of his life and i asked him : " am i cute? "He keep nodding then he giggle HAHAHAH.
End up his mother dulan then ask him stop looking at me already.
Rachel laughed for the whole day afterwards.

I ask my mum to buy my ic number Then guess what. She won $400 +
2nd prize eyebag. so i force her to buy me a shoe from the uncle beside our shop. :>
Later my dad's gonna fetch me to mall . I wannnnn buy new school bag.

Last night was resting then around 3am Zhong called me.
Shall not describe what he said.
He with his friends . xiaored they all i think(?)
but very worried for him so didnt sleep afterwards.
Then 4+ Wz call me also. Saying he's at Geylang drinking beer.
Then he drunk i think -,- anyhow talk to me. After that he text me at 6.
Now everyone got me thinking. -.-
Hope they text me when they wake up.

anyway i got back my phone. Text 91139278!
Ok i shall post tmr bye all!

I damn sad now. nvm.

My dad coming to fetch me to bugis.

bye.

Hi im very sad because i upset my mum.
I was suppose to go make ic + help her at her shop because my uncle went overseas not enough helpers.
Then i ask my mum to find my phone so tht i can text my friend then she say cannot find my phone. So i moodswing angry i say i dont want go help her at her shop anymore. Cause i thought she lie to me she cannot find my phone again.
then my dad came to my room and ask me to go help her but i was angry at the moment and i shouted at him.

Then she super dulan now i bet she's gonna take my lappy and everything when she come home.
End up my bro text me say she left it in my dad's car.
And he say my mum is damn pissed .
I feel damn fucked that im so bad to my parents.
I called my Dad just now and my dad tried to help me but my mum doesnt want to talk to me.
I asked my dad to pass my Mum the phone but my mum say " I dont want to talk to her" .

usually i dont hack care my Mother and this kinda stuff but now i really care. I need them by my side for support really.
cause im alone and when i cry no one's there,only my parents.

I know you all cfm ask me go work now but the problem is i have no key to go out cause my maid and bro went over to my sister house. And then im stuck at home with this lappy which is gonna get confiscated 9 hours later. And i can jump out from the window cause i stay first floor but i dont want to run home again.Sorry i not so childish like last time. if not later AMK HQ sir really rec me into Girlshome. i dont want waste so much time also.

Emo die me. Seriously ,im a bad kid. pissed because i upset my parents.

Im not pretty but people call me cute. lol

Hello all. Please dont laugh at my fringe cause i cut my hair myself. Accidentally cut too short :<

Yesterday,or today(its 5am in the morning),
Home>School>Home>Green>Plaza>Senior>Home.

Yesterday in school someone send Joan nonsense msg again so Isaac used his phone to spam the person. Then the person called to scold people & i took the phone and scolded him. Then he humji kup :> read Joan's blog for more.

Well anyway went to green @ 3pm as usual. Found Alan & Chenlong. Benjamin also @ lan. I played Audi for a short while then Cs-ed with some Noobfucks in the lan. Then went to sit beside Ben to chat. After awhile Dong came so i went to puff :> Very cold in green manzx.

After that Me Ben Dong and his two other friends played CS.Hmm,Then Sean came. Me & Ben very sian so i changed com for Ben & his friends. we played L4D2 . after 30minutes me & Ben play till dulan,so we asked the others to go block slack. then they have meeting. shall not describe. They keep making fun of me and Ben also.

Hmm,After a good chat ,Me,Cl,Ben,Sean took a cab to plaza cause Ben want to play pool.This Ben and Sean ah,keep whacking each other. Even the Taxi driver also bth. After that reached plaza.Then i played a few rounds of pool with Sean . Then saw Patrick ,So played a round with him :> Seeing him again @ my house during Cny so happy :> . He's my father's goodfriend's son.

Then i told Cl something hope he wont tell on me . I dont want the anyone to avoid me :/

Well, Cl told Jiahui i with him. He miss me too much so ask us to meet him when we take bus home LOL. So me and Cl bused to my house there at around 9pm. Met Jiahui @ Senior. Discussed about alot of things. Got business to doooo i need ask around for help already. After that discussion ,home sweet home at 10pm.

P/s sorry Joan ,never pei you go airport to see your SHINEE :<

P/p/s sorry Zhong,Yesterday around midnight you ask me to call you back but i this pig fell asleep again. sorry.

Home>Hougang green > Hougang point>Home
Hi just came back from lan. Rachel came too ^^ After that around 8.30 Bused to Hougang point.
Bought all the above items. around $80 pro anot. + Rachel's i think around $120.
And of course my favourite is the SallyHanson ORANGE NAIL POLISH. And im kinda sad and i just cried because of some reasons. And partly its because people have been making my friends cry.
Im serious,If you guys hurt my friends again im going to do things the hard way.
And then if you guys are sad please look at this photo:

Funny right i sacrifice my fats for you all. HAHA.
& I dont say myself cute for nothing lol(?)
PROVE.

1)By Rachel:
Joeleen. I feel fucked. Im damn fucked. says:
*am i cute
- ʝ’vϵux τoɴ амouʀ. says:
*ouch fine yes ( forced as you can see )

2)Dong:
SakidOng <3>

*yo cutie
*hahaha
Joeleen. I feel fucked. Im damn fucked. says:
*HAHAHA!
*how u know my name cutie!

3)Kelly sis:
Joeleen. I feel fucked. Im damn fucked. says:
*am i cute
*give straight answer
;;Butterfly♥ 3 words, 8 letters. says:
*yes

4)Jessieeee:
Joeleen. I feel fucked. Im damn fucked. says:
*am i cute
*straight ans plox
*LOL
(F) xAHXI says:
*hahaha
*quite

5) the crazy girl BERLIN.
Joeleen. Hi all,Im your Guanyinma,pray to me. says:
*AM I CUTE
*give straight answer
(L) B.erlin says:
*YES BABY

6)Hisham
Joeleen. Hi all,Im your Guanyinma,pray to me. says:
*am i cute
Muhammad says:
*yes of cuz x.x

lame right. If you guys got something bad to say about me because of this post i can only say TOO BAD LOSERS. Bye! ^^ Hate people who read people blog then talk about them cause they jealous. Post tmr! cya guys!
teardropsandfireflies .

Ohmygod. Im sorry guys really sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.
I fell asleep =.=
I didnt get a good sleep for 3weeks already. And sorry to those who waited for my reply on msn.
I fell asleep at around 10.30pm and now its 4am < -.- Especially Zhong. I promised to call you back at 11pm but didnt.please please please forgive me. Sorry for letting you wait . I broke my promise & i bet you're really angry now. I really dont know what to say now . I dont wanna blog anymore i feeeel veryyy disappointed for making so many people angry/wait. :(

And i'll link/relink ya guys when i get back from bugis later.
once again,sorry :(

Love to be loved

Today i slept for more than 3 hours and im so happy. Cause this few weeks i cant get enough sleep.Insomnia i guess. Woke up at 4.30am. then 5am Dennon suddenly ask me to call him. So we had a early -in-the-morning chat. haha! Now on maple with my precious Kenneth di,Cause he says he's bored.
Im very sad and angry because i cannot join Joan's LP in Audi cause tmr i need go make ic. My mum say will have fine $5000 . Please guys dont laugh at me i know all of you have gotten your ic. I think im the only girl in whole of Singapore who haven make ic la hais i so fail. Then im going to Everlast to buy my school shoes and maybe buy a orange water bottle ! Then gonna hunt for school bag.Since my Uncle's shop dont have orange bag @_@ i love orange ok.

LOL If you guys want to read about my school life go to Joan's blog cause everyday she post something about what i do i think. She love me too much. hmm .
A quote from Joan's blog:
"LOL. then Today Joeleen ong and Shabil is damn BAD & DISGUSTING. They were saying someone. then say until like don't know what. say what the smell come out. cb siah"

Please let me correct you.

LOL. then Today Joeleen ong is cute and Shabil is damn BAD & DISGUSTING. They were saying someone. then say until like don't know what. Joeleen only say the girl like to open leg bigbig when sitting down and shabil say what the smell come out. *removes the word (cb siah)* Joan please be more gentle .

Ok i need to go study for math test and do Social Studies Presentation if not tmr TOH KOK HWEE confirm will scold me. All i do you know ?he so lazy hehe jk. tmr let him present all the slides. HAHA! im evil so dont trust me guys.
Post tmr BYE!
Oh ya remember to tag my blog. Its below the blog title which says "comment here" harhar.
You all think read no need pay money? Dont pay money then leave tag ty.
kbye

This is what i can tell my friends about you,which no other girl in this world will.

They'll say you're super handsome,

But i'll say you have a beautiful smile .

They'll say they want to live with you,

But i'll say i live for you.

I dont love you by your looks which others girls will.

But i love you in my heart. memories cannot be erased.

we gave each other a lot of firsts.

But love means wishing the one you love happiness.

As long if you're happy,I'll be happy.

Good luck in everything and last long if you find a new girl.

"No couples will last forever.

Thus many do not believe in love."

HI . Im going to lan now to play Audi,cause i wanna play with Joan :)

Will update my blog later if i find Audi boring yawns ~

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EDITED:

Hi its 5.30pm now. Just now saw Chenlong!

Benjamin,Sean ,Dong also here .

Then i went out of lan to puff. So cold in lan luh :(

Hear Benjamin scold people. Someone bully my Dongdong >:(

Anyway Dong!Last long with your girl ohkay,

I jealous leh so sweet :)

Heh,Then Chenlong treat me drink bubbletea, Then i watch him eat his noodles.

He say i cute neh LOL!

JOAN SEE , i say myself cute is not bhb ok? LOL.

Anyway you all should read Joan's blog about what happened today.

I said something and she is telling the whole world about it.

Irritating, she always cock with me in class.

I only say fail jiu fail loh.Then i change my mind ma,funny meh? ha!

Anyway im so busy talking cock in audi now so im gonna blog when i get home.

And i think im having a bbq party at my house soon.

I have bbq pit in my house.

I'll confirm with you all.

CYA! Stay tune to my coooool blog .

I guess my heart's still sealed afterall.

Im afraid i wont open it up to anyone else anymore..

Its 4.30am in the morning. Cant stop thinking.

Hi im cute LOL :)

to the person who added me on msn,Please stop doing this kinda stupid things. ^^

What are you trying to do? Please stop invading his life too tyvm .

I dont give a damn & you're very annoying. /blocked,Bye ^^

Hi pigs/cats/dog/humans

this is me and my bro :)

He suddenly like to take picture with me. I post more next time :)

During school today my heart pain because of Amanda.

Hope her blister will ok soon >:(

Anyway after school today, Jiahui ,Kokhwee ,Jiakit came to my house.

Jiahui is come and wait time past cause he waiting his gf to end school -.-

Jiakit and Kokhwee is come to puff ,and use my laptop, -.-Dont know why they come.

after that they ask alot of stupid questions &Use my lappy log into maple, around 4pm,

they left.

Now im talking on the phone with a friend,very bored .

this few days im watching Kimi Ni Todoke .

You guys should watch it! Its a love story :) But super funny lol

Anyway those who keep saying that i never reply their msg,

I'm sorry,Its because my mum confiscated my phone long time ago :)

Can contact me by msn:

teardropsandfireflies@hotmail.com

cya.

Sigh..my heart ..

I guess no one cares anyway ;

Read this:

When you pick a location to settle your daiji, ALWAYS remember it's either the :

Staircase

The staircase is often a place to tio daiji because if your victim wants to run away, he will run down the stairs and through my personal experience, 3 out of 17 victims have fallen down the stairs while they are trying to escape. Although it is only a small number, it is still a possibility that the victim cannot escape, so the staircase is a very good place to whack someone.

For the other 14 times, it is me who have fallen down the staircase but you cannot laugh at me because I am your tao eh.

Joke right?

http://borntobeyourtaoeh.blogspot.com

This guy who create the blog super funny,you guys should read it. I see le bth.

Kthxforreadingbye.

Well yesterday SSC ,Mr tee brought us opposite bowen to fly kite.

He really too good alr. He treat us all bubble tea. abit creepy eh?

And then Mr Tee abit ... He asked me "You like me anot?"

And then when i asked him to walk slower he ask me " Why ?miss me?"

Then that bitch Berlin laugh like hell! got so funny issit?!

& Heres a picture of the pro me flying kite

( i was the first to make the kite fly hence have the right to call myself pro )

And then today...Irritating ok . Stupid Shabil keep quarrel with me cause me and Joan told him about the proud girl beside our class. he irritating ok! He say: " Ok la you pretty but the girl prettier" IRRITATING RIGHT? Then Joan still keep laughing,irritating!

& then im very angry cause when i was walking past Jeremiah's seat,he call my name then use a ruler to whack my butt. Then when Mr Feng pull his ear he still got the cheek to say he never use his hand!

Argh i hate this class!

Hi guys. I bought brown black and grey contact lenses.
Dont call me crazy. haha ,my mum's friend sell me cheap :)

I want to be happy for all my friends,and my love ones.
Cause i dont want you guys to worry..
As you guys told me,I changed for the better.
Im happy for myself too ;

I really hope everything will be alright soon.
I'll clear all my problems alone i guess..
I'm always alone. since 2 weeks ago.


Leen mizuki's;
i miss you.